I'm just you're average 18 year old guy at college. I cuss a lot. I don't mean to, but i'm not afraid to offend anyone. I drop the 'nigger-bomb' and if that pisses you off feel free to not look at my shit or unfollow me. I have strong opinions about certain things, that i freely voice here. I'm a realist, but i tend to stray from reality when i don't want to deal with things. This is my blog, my 'safe haven' to voice my thoughts..enjoy. (im not taking credit for anything unless i say its mine, sometimes i dont even do that..so dont bitch)
or you could just accept me.
im very open minded.
just the shit that you come up with..its purpose is to change me to how YOU want.
i am not you. i will never be you.
i dont want to be you.
i want to be myself.
and the more you try the more i am going to push you away.
and if youre going to use buying me a car against me, i will fucking give it right back to you.
you are the only person that makes me so mad/frustrated that my eyes water and i get at a loss of what to do.
cry. yell. stay quiet. tune everything out. pay attention. forget about it. get over it. hold onto it. be a bitch. smart off to everything you say. keep the good tone. so many emotions at once. mostly bad ones. that are really hard for me to control. really, really hard for me to control.
it takes all of my energy to put a happy face on..if i can even muster up enough for that.
you drain me. emotionally. physically.
i love you, a whole bunch. youre just..not good for me.
you help me out a lot. i appreciate all youve done. you saved my life. raised me for a bit. gave me a roof. a bunch of material things. i had a good life. im going to college thanks to you. but. lksdjf. i dont know.
i contradict myself a lot with you.
you drilled a lot of shit into my head.
idk. i cant wait to go back up to flagstaff..
